Pages of Memory

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Hello, my dear friends! I’m not officially back from my bereavement time here on the blog, but there’s something I wanted to share with you anyway. First, my heartfelt thanks for all the support, prayers and encouragement I have received. As I shared earlier on Facebook, your kind words and thoughtfulness have been a light for me in the darkness of grief. A piece of my heart will always be missing without my Mom-mom, but your love has filled my heart in another way, and reminded me that mine isn’t broken completely. I wish I could give each of you a hug right now!

Tomorrow will make one week since my grandmother’s memorial service, although time has been a blur for me. I haven’t fully bounced back from all the preparations we made for her service, and aside from a journal entry, this blog post is the first thing I’ve written since my last goodbye to her.

However, I wrote something in her memory last week. One of my best friends read it aloud on my behalf at the memorial service. I’d like to share it here as well, in Mom-mom’s honor.

I’m not a poet, but I wrote this one out of love… and memory.

Pages of Memory
by Sarah R. Munson

In the library of my heart
Are shelves in rows and rows
And as I walk I start
To consider all my memory book shows

I bring it down with care
And open to my favorite page
To think of each memory we got to share
How you were there in every stage

When I was small, you were my favorite playmate
You could always make me laugh at any game
Every moment spent with you was a special date
Now without you, life can’t be the same

Pressed between the pages like flowers
Are our sunny, laughing days and late nights
All the times we talked and laughed for hours
The way you were so full of heaven’s light

I remember us walking hand in hand
Taking trips to church, the library and store
Loving every instant together, planned and unplanned
I couldn’t possibly love those times more

In the book of memories are also
Lessons I learned from you
All the boundless love you’d show
The kind, generous things you would do

Each sentence of our story is etched upon my heart
And although our time together had to end
So you could experience heaven’s new start,
You’ll always be both my grandmother and my friend

I know you will never be far from me
Forever you live, in my heart’s pages of memory.

Thank you again for your kindness and understanding for me in this time of remembrance. That friendship is something I hold onto, and will never forget.

With love & gratitude,

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New Year’s Symphony

My final post for the year. Already, it has come to this. In a matter of minutes, everything will bear the date of 2015. That’s hard to believe, especially considering I wrote 2013 on something just last month. I was finally getting used to writing 2014, and now I have to readjust again.

I didn’t accomplish everything I planned to in 2014. In fact, most of my plans were turned upside down or torn up completely. Most of my accomplishments were entirely unplanned. In some ways, I’ve changed dramatically, and in others I still have a great deal of growing to do. Still, I don’t feel totally like the girl who crossed from 2013 into 2014, and I know I have the chance to change entering 2015. No matter how many resolutions I failed in the past, something about a brand new year fills me with hope: Hope to do more, see more, be more. To change more and make more.

For a girl who typically resists change, I tend to stack too much of it on the brink of each New Year.  I once made a dozen resolutions, only to forget them all by Valentine’s Day.

So this year, even though I have goals, I don’t want to make them the center of my plans. After all, if there’s one thing I have learned this year, it’s that plans change. I’m tired of making long lists where I either quit and feel like a failure, or succeed yet still feel empty. My desire is for 2015 to be a deeper year, one of true growth. I don’t want to measure my success this year by how much I produce or earn, but by the person I become.

Yes, I’m still going to try the usual things, like getting healthier and becoming more organized. What I really want, though, is to change my way of living. I don’t want this to be another year where I miss the miracles around me, where I go through each day and forget about the One who gave me those days.

I found these beautiful words from William Ellery Channing a while ago, but I’ve adopted them as my mantra for 2015.

 To live content with small means, 
To seek elegance rather than luxury, 
    and refinement rather than fashion. 
To be worthy not respectable, and wealthy not rich. 
To study hard, think quietly, talk gently, act frankly,
to listen to stars, birds, babes, and sages with open heart,
to bear all cheerfully, do all bravely, await occasions, hurry never. 
In a word, to let the spiritual, unbidden and unconscious, 
    grow up through the common.
This is to be my symphony. 

– William Ellery Channing, “My Symphony”

To remind me of this each day, I made some simple quote prints. Each time I see them, I hope I’ll remember that life is a miraculous gift. 2014 was a gift, despite coming in an assorted box of good and bad, and 2015 will be the same way.

Symphony bird printSymphony tree print

If you would like to share that reminder, you can download the free prints in 8×10 size here, or in postcard format here. For the 8×10 size, there is a design with birds, a text-only one, and one featuring trees. The postcards are printed with either birds or trees. 

As the final notes of this year fade into silence, and the symphony begins to play for 2015, I hope our new songs will be beautiful. No matter what changes come- both in our control and out of it- I pray we will have courage and strength. I pray that when we don’t, we will allow ourselves to be carried and comforted by God’s unfailing love, and covered in His grace.

Most of all, I pray we will make the most of every new beginning. Of our fresh year, and each fresh day in it.

Happy New Year, dears! May your days in 2015 be filled with unsinkable joy, unshakable peace, and unwavering hope.

I’m looking forward to sharing another year with you.

Blog SignatureP. S. Be sure to check out these inspiring New Years Posts from a couple of my favorite bloggers, as well. 🙂

2014 Going on 2015 from Rana at the Villain Authoress 

Turn to Face the New Year from Miriam at Wishful Thinking