What I Learned in April

April

I’m beginning to wonder if I’ll ever feel ready to write one of these posts. Each one proves that another month has come to an end. Each time I sit down to type one, I feel like the calendar has played a trick on me. Because how in the world are we more than a third of the way through this year?! It’s really not possible, but here I am staring at the month of May. And here I am, wondering what I did with April… What did I learn?

Writing these monthly reflection posts helps me to pause and figure that out. I already covered the first portion of April, in a post earlier this month.

So here’s what I learned in the rest of April.

  • Independence isn’t everything. I think a lot of us take pride in being self-sufficient; that drive for independence even shaped an entire nation. For my own part, I can take this a little too far. While I’m good at working with a team to get a job done, I try to shoulder the entire burden when it comes to my own life. Shamefully, I haven’t even allowed myself to lean on God. I’ve clung instead to my independence; my stubborn, desperate need to be in control. Needing anyone has felt like a liability. It’s caused me to shy away from relationships; to keep a safe distance from being, heaven forbid, dependent. But you know something? Independence has a downside. Sometimes I can barely stand, let alone on my own. When God formed the first human life, He didn’t stop there. He made more life, and connected those lives to each other and to Him. We were never meant to exist in isolation… Not from each other, and surely not from Him.
  • Memories are complicated. The mind is amazing, and how our past is tucked away there fascinates me. It’s incredible how the slightest thing, be it a scent or a sound, can yank one of those memories from storage.
  • Emotions take a long time to heal. Even when they do, I don’t think they’re ever the same as before they were broken. I also think that’s okay. Life won’t ever be the same as before; it seems natural that I won’t be exactly as I was, either.
  • Everything cycles through seasons. Some seasons seem to stretch on and on; others speed by. Every season has a downside. Winter is too dark and cold; I’m allergic to spring; summer can be oppressively hot at times, and fall is another round of allergies. Yet they all have upsides, too. It depends where we look. Such are the seasons of life. No matter how long they last, they do eventually change, leaving us to face another new season, mixed with ups and downs. The trick is not to wish for what’s behind us, because eventually this will be behind us, too. (Most of this post is a list of reminders for me!)
  • I like metaphors a little too much at times. See above section about the seasons.
  • In the midst of my life changing, my writing life has changed too. I’ve developed different habits, some of which I’m going to need to reshape. As I shared in another post, I haven’t felt truly ready to write, because I haven’t had the energy for my story. Now I realize it’s not just about energy. Stories preserve pieces of us, especially when we are the ones telling those stories. Every time I open my document, I’m transported back several months. I see a different person in those pages, and I’m having trouble reconciling her with the girl I feel like now. It’s almost like trying to be a co-author, except I’m attempting to team up with my past self. I have a few solutions to try my hand at, even if they may seem like temporary setbacks.
  • Don’t despise small beginnings. Even mighty redwood trees sprout from tiny seeds, buried in dirt. My dreams, towering as I imagine them to be, are little more than sprouts right now. They’re still closer to the humble earth than the vast heavens. But they are growing. And so am I, even when it’s just a meager start.

Small Beginnings

And because I’ve been almost mainly serious on the blog for a while, here are a couple of random, fun things I also learned in April. 🙂

  • Loki and I could take over the world together. I know, we just talked about small beginnings. World domination doesn’t fit that description. But I found a random quiz, and apparently Loki is the villain I would work best with. I didn’t need a test to tell me that… Now I just need to figure out if I should be worried what this says about me.
  • Speaking of quizzes, I put one together for the Fangirl Initiative last week. It was to see “Which Avengers Man is Your True Love?” I didn’t expect such a response, but it became extremely popular! That was a pretty fantastic feeling, and I learned that I’m not the only one who likes quirky little quizzes! Though it’s possibly cheating to take my own quiz, I did and confirmed something. Captain America would be my match! It makes sense, given my love for vintage things… 😉Avengers Quiz
  • Wishes do come true! Ever since I first experienced the music of the Phantom of the Opera, I’ve wanted Josh Groban to sing it. Particularly the song, All I Ask of You. And this week it happened. Since his new album released, I’ve had that one track on loop. I make no apologies. If you haven’t heard it yet, listen to it and enjoy four angelic minutes. You’re welcome.

What did you take away from last month? If you write reflection posts like this, drop a link in the comments! Much as I enjoy sharing my learning, I like reading about yours even more. If you want to read some other Learning posts from April, take a look at the link-up on Chatting at the SkyAnd be sure to check out the rest of that inspiring blog- it’s one of my favorites.

May your May be marvelous!

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9 thoughts on “What I Learned in April

    1. Hi Ciara! Thanks for sharing your post! I loved reading it, and I relate to so much of it. It especially resonated with you saying, “I like things to happen on my time as I have planned & God has shown me constantly my timing isn’t always correct.” That seems to be the story of my life lately, and it was so encouraging to be reminded never to stop dreaming. I wish you all the best with your dreams & future! 🙂

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    1. Thank you, Marissa! I love hearing when you relate to something. It’s comforting to know I’m not alone- which is funny, since we’re talking about being independent 😉

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  1. I can definitely relate to the part about not wanting to rely on other people. That’s a fault I’m trying to overcome.

    Yes, brains are funny things. I find songs and books especially have a way of moving you back in time to a certain place and a certain frame of mind (but maybe that’s just because I spend far too much time on both. 😀 ).

    But metaphors are life! (Or rather, life is metaphor. 😉 ).

    “Don’t despise small beginnings” is very good writing advice. When I write, I keep losing faith in myself, thinking that whatever I do now is as good as it’s going to get. I definitely needed to be reminded that nothing starts out realizing its full potential.

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    1. Hanna, I’m sorry I’m replying so late! Thank you for your kind words.
      Songs and books are such powerful memory boosters! You can never really spend too much time on either 😉
      I hadn’t thought of “Don’t despise small beginnings” as writing advice, but it really does fit. I’m so glad you mentioned it, because I needed to be reminded of that tonight! The way you phrased it, “Nothing starts out realizing its full potential,” is positively quotable. I love that!
      Thanks for always being such an encouragement. I can’t tell you how much I appreciate you taking the time to leave me a comment & share your thoughts. ❤

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  2. So Blessed to have come across your words today!! “Don’t despise small beginnings. Even mighty redwood trees sprout from tiny seeds, buried in dirt.” Don’t ya just love it, when the same verse appears in our path…several times in a short period?! A friend and I were chatting a few hours ago, at length about this very verse in Zechariah! Blessed Word!!

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    1. Hi Jessica! I’m so touched that this post blessed you; reading your comment blessed me in turn. I was just visiting your blog. It’s absolutely lovely! I can’t wait to read through some more of your posts. Thanks for stopping by!

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  3. Oh dear, Sarah. I got Captain America too . . . Does this mean we have to end our friendship now? I mean, I like having things in common with you and all, but seriously. I don’t share well.

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